Lengthy Letdown

It's been a long time because I've been both incredibly busy and lazy.

Long story short, the semester is now over and despite wonderful success in my subject area, I've let myself down in the mandatory science credits.

How I of all people managed not to pull a midrange grade in fucking Astronomy is a story too long for the limited mobility I have at present.

As I have managed to get thoroughly drunken in the process of moping, I can spare only the focus to say that this is the worst failure of all types. You let down your friends, they forgive you. You let down your family, they forgive you. You let yourself down, though, and the forgiveness is not so forthcoming. Failing myself, the only person anymore with any access into my internal workings whatsoever, is the largest, longest, most painful failure. It is the hardest to come to terms with and to overcome and will take a lot more time and rum to rectify.

I intend to pick up the pen for my personal use again soon, however I will not, even in my present state, be foolish enough to promise anything.

Happy Soviets' Day.